one of my ex-colleagues is going to melbourne to further her studies.. she was very kind to me at work in the past.. always giving their best at work to assist me with my events.. motivation and praises are what i always get from her and ms J.. i missed her surprise party cos it was grandma's birthday.. she dated me for dinner tonight but cos we agreed to go on dinner with felix today so i met them for a snappy lunch instead.. i thought dinner was on until 8-ish then i realised i received no call from anybody.. no one fixed a time.. dinner was called off.. i could have met up with the gals for dinner!! gosh..

my mobile was stolen.. okie.. it brings down to a conclusion why i myself put the bloody phone on the stupid counter and gave the fucking bitch a chance to steal my phone.. carelessness - it has always been one of my flaws, a major one.. papa used to say if my brain ain't in my head, i'll probably lose it a million times.. i wish my phone would explode and scarred the bitch's face for the rest of her life!!

thought i could handle both work and studies well but it seems like i'm jeopardising both and straining myself out.. boss gave me a list of responsibilities this noon and i totally freaked out.. i was on half-day running errands and picking up my new sim card and he actually claimed that i was wasting everybody's time as he was unable to start a "emergency" meeting this morning..

my exams are coming.. i would need more leave and that would means me leaving my work to other colleagues AGAIN.. i cannot have the best of both worlds - easy job with a GREAT pay cum studies.. fat hope missy boo..

i'll work out my options..

i just wanna cry to slumberland..